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All My Relations
It’s our understanding that the spirit of our grandfather is not breathed into two leggeds alone, but the whole created universe shares in the immortal perfection of its craftsman. From the ultimate miracle, the greatest mystery, there came a massive unifying life force that flows in and through everything that is. Therefore we are all kindred and brought together by the same creator. The flowers of the earth, the whispering winds, rocks, the murmuring trees who breathe its presence, the falling waters who chant its praise and all of creation who share with us the storms and blessings of nature. Kinship with all creatures of the earth, sky and water was a real and active principal. We see in them something of the sinless purity that we attribute to the innocent and irresponsible child. Contemplating their instincts as the mysterious wisdom from above. There was no wilderness because nature wasn’t dangerous, but hospitable, not forbidding but friendly. With the animal kingdom existed a brotherhood. So close were some to their feathered and furred relatives that in true brotherhood they spoke a common tongue. If all animals were gone, man would cease to exist. For whatever happens to the animals also happens to men. All things are connected, whatever befalls the earth, befalls the children of the earth.
Land Of The Free
A native’s worth was not estimated by possessions such as bling bling, but in what he gave away. Public giving is part of every important ceremony. A birthday for example, the honoree wasn’t lavished with presents, instead he was expected to give gifts to honor guests for attending. This tradition was properly observed at the celebrations of birth, marriage, death and when it’s desired to do special honor to any person or event. One must learn early the beauty of generosity. Traditional children were taught to give what they most cherished, so they could taste the happiness of giving. From that point they were the family giver of alms. For life to be rich and full, we must give as well as receive. Our generosity is limited only by our strength. We had no need for banks. When we had plenty of money or blankets we gave to guests of another tribe, relatives, but above all to the poor and aged. Then finally the gift to the Great Spirit, may be of little value in itself, but should carry the meaning of true sacrifice. In time gifts are returned and our hearts feel good. Our way of giving is our bank. A sense of honor pervades all aspects of native life. Let those I serve express their thanks according to their own upbringing and sense of respect.
People Of The Sun
Sunlight, our main source and provider of light, warmth and energy not only sustains all life on earth but sustains the earth itself. Life on Mother Earth evolved under natural sunlight and has existed for quite some time under its full spectrum of light. Many civilizations worshipped the sun and understood its healing powers available in its full spectrum of light, to treat physical and mental issues, a practice called Heliotherapy. For millions of years life has flourished under sunlight, which contains ultraviolet radiation. Now science claims that UV light is harmful and medical research has determined that sunlight is hazardous to people’s health and all sorts of special eyeglasses and sunscreens are marketed for protection. By spending a majority of your time under artificial lights, you may be subjecting yourself to mal-illumination. We are constantly ingesting polluted air, devitalized food and impure water, yet the most obvious nutrient light is overlooked. Ultraviolet light is a nutrient, just like a vitamin or a mineral. There are stress relieving properties in a golden sunrise. We stand erect before the advancing dawn, facing the sun as it dances upon the horizon and offer our unspoken prayer of thanks.
Who’s Your Favorite NDN
It’s true that when people are spoken of, they are characterized by qualities which attach either love or hate. People (including enemies) are either to be treated with respect or utterly crushed. Revenge will be pursued for minor offenses. Therefore the disrespect if shown to a man should be the kind that afterward the threat is eliminated. Understand war will not be avoided, only postponed to the advantage of the opposition. If you must inspire fear, do it in a way that if you cannot be loved, you can escape hate. The Chief who is revered by the people is not easy to attack. Those who conspire plan on pleasing the people by usurping the throne. But seeing that instead of pleasing the people they will offend, it would be unwise to do so. Present difficulties are easy to see. It’s the wise who use all diligence against future dangers. For if foreseen while remote are easily fixed. Yet if they are awaited to be approached, are already past cure. If you are incapable of radiating qualities that acquire dignity, the last one could do is refrain from projecting distasteful ones. For example, spitting on a sacred fire could result in illness. Almost any thought or action, if it showed disrespect to nature could have harmful consequences. The same is true of human nature.
Honest NDN/White Lies
Our fathers gave us many laws which they learned from their fathers. Many generations of transmitting from father to son a way of life. The remembrance of these was faithfully preserved by succeeding generations. They were not to be forgotten as long as the Earth remains. Such was the importance of our word and integrity that in traditional days, lying was a capitol offense. Because we understood the deliberate liar is capable of committing any violation behind the façade of cowardly untruth. The destroyer of mutual confidence was put to death so the evil could go no further. Prejudice and racial injustice was no excuse for our breaking our word. It would have been better if no treaties had been made, than to have made them and break them. Famous words, “Father Of Lies”, “I Shall Not Tell A Lie”, “Hypocrites”. We would be better pleased to see the good effects of our doctrines rather than hearing them preached. It does not require many words to speak the truth. Actions speak louder than words. If you need to explain yourself, it’s because your integrity is already in question. Always say less than necessary. Words do not last long unless they amount to something. Likewise thievery was a disgrace and if discovered, the name “Wamonon” (Thief) was an eternal stigma. On Tipi, Wigwam or Longhouse there were no locks. We did not need them.
In life, at one point or another, most of us fortunately will experience a “rocky relationship”. Why? Who knows. Pray and ask God! But, what if I told you all about how to prevent experiencing a rocky relationship, which you embrace any of my advisory? Probably not. Why? Most human beings rather learn by experience and not from the experienced. I don’t care about that though, because this is my blog and on my blog I drop “jewelry” (wisdom) for those who choose to shine (succeed).
Time to show out: unless you and until you can identify with, and understand yourself, all relationships and particularly intimate relationships, are deeply flawed and ultimately dysfunctional. They may seem perfect for a while, such as when you are “in love”, invariably that apparent “perfection” gets disrupted as arguments, conflicts, dissatisfaction and emotional or even physical violence occurs with increasing frequency. It seems that most “love relationships” become rocky relationships before long. Those of you know what I’m talking about when I say, love can turn into a savage attack, feelings of hostility, resentment or complete withdrawal of affection at the flick of a switch. What’s insane about this, it is actually considered to be normal. These type of relationships oscillate for awhile, a few months or a few years between the polarities of “love” and hate, and it gives you as much pleasure as it gives you pain. In relationships like this, with your significant other, you both could of been to hell and back together, damn near ready to kill each other, but out of habit, not love, you tell yourself, “I am going to stand by him or her, things will get better, I just know it”. Blah, blah, blah!! Bull!!
If that is you, don’t feel alone. It is not uncommon for couples to become addicted to those cycles. Their drama makes them feel alive. When the balance between a positive/negative polarities is lost and the negative, destructive cycles occur with increasing frequency and intensity, which tends to happen sooner or later, then it will not be long before the relationship finally collapes.
Advice: first, know yourself, know your limits, identify what it is that you are exactly looking for in a relationship, and then, if a relationship is what you really want, to find the ideal candidate to submit your application to. Before you two decide to become an item, first explore the do’s and don’ts. Discuss the likes and dislikes, preferences and non-preferences. For example; you don’t want to get into a relationship with any drug or sex addict, if you don’t use drugs or rather sex just three times a week. The two of you would be uncomfortable in a situation like this, cheating and lying would ensue and relationships like this never last long. You know the saying, “what you won’t do, someone else will”. With that being said, if you want to prevent experiencing a “rocky relationship”, make sure that you and your potential partner have common interests and share the same vision. Basically, come to the table and match each other’s completeness.
That’s the jewelry!! Take it, wear it…use it to shine…
Jabbar AKA J. Jewler
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I'm just going off the top of my mind on this. I get a lot of people asking about me and my past, and where I come from that write to me all the time, but it’s hard to share that type of pain in memories. My neighborhood where I'm from? You don’t get a lot of people coming from the mud and slums to say they made it out of that. We either die there or we go to jail and we die here. Those rare few that do make it out still got it in their blood so it’s a bittersweet thing to deal with and it’s hard to judge. I lost a lot of people. Rest in peace, G-Rap”, I miss you boy. I remember the talk we had sitting on that porch of Columbia. I'm forever chasing that business because of you. Rest in peace “Sue”, I miss you too. We grew a bond because after Rap died we both held our heads hoping we were misinformed. Rest in peace “Live Wire”, them boys on go mode because of you. Other stuff I can’t speak or write about but you know what it is. Rest in peace “Maraad”, I wish we had one time and some people in it for the glory and not the love. It’s a fine line in difference. Rest in peace “Menace”, you put it down and that’s on my G’zz! And all the real ones extinct and there’s maybe a few left. Rest in peace “Gig z”, Nightmare, Sparks and “E”; all day one shooters, man I love them boys. Keese I lost my bro and he ain’t even dead and it’s a shame. We aint eye to eye bro but just remember the day your daughter was born. I could’ve lost my life for the family. Riding around with that “drum” is what I'm doing these days. Rest in peace though. Rest is peace my brother, “Pudge” forever. The day I got the news me and my father cried together and it made our bond so much more unbreakable. I got you bro, I always keep your memory alive until we meet in the hereafter. I miss you so much boy.
Shout out to my brother “Mook”. Go easy bro, let them breathe for now. Shout out “D-boy”, “Mu”, and my gunners “Rah-rah” and “Fu the quan”. Some dudes I can mention because they on the “opp” side now. Man y’all hurt my heart. Might as well be dead to me. If I didn’t mention anyone else in the shout outs, no hard feelings, I love y’all. Oh by the way, shout out “Queen Tyshima”, and all my kids, and my father, and my partner. People ask me about my past….”ask” me about what I wanna do with what’s left of my future. Don’t ask me about nothing that can cause me pain. That’s all I have in memories. I'm from the mud. That doesn’t mean I wanna go back and visit in reflection. 100% really though.
My Own Worst Enemy
Some people are defeated because others kill them. There’s also those who die because they defeat themselves. They surgically cut a hole in their heart and invite death to nest there. A person’s well-being is like a deep well full of fresh water and sometimes when a particular thought is too unpleasant to overcome, the thought will be hidden in a heavy box and thrown into that well. Listen for the splash…and then it’s gone. Ignorance is bliss. Except it’s not of course. Even the deepest well has a bottom, it’s there resting in the abyss. The casket those problems and difficulties are in will rot and the putrid thoughts will leak out and poison that well. When a person’s mind, heart or soul is badly polluted, the result is insanity. Your own self is very important. It’s important to understand life on life’s terms. It requires a strong mind to see the truth, instead of thinking things. The path to glory is rough and many gloomy hours obscure it. Challenging situations are opportunities for our deepest inner growth. The secret is to turn every challenge and weakness into a strength and advantage. When you love yourself, you can do great things. If you feel bad, all your words and actions are permeated by that vibration. Your best friend or worst nightmare is within. Just as there is fragrance in a flower, just as there is reflection in a mirror.
Band Of Brothers
Friendship is held to be the severest test of character. We choose friends and our friends choose us. The friends we pick are at least as important as the family we’re born into. It’s easy to be loyal to family or nation whose blood runs in our veins, or a significant other whose heart we share. But to have a friend and remain true under any and all trials is the true mark of brotherhood. The essence of camaraderie is each vows to die for the other if need be. A kingdom divided against itself cannot stand. If there is discord among brethren, intercede, die if necessary in your attempt to bring about reconciliation. Those with an “Identity Commitment” or allegiance to a group or world view, exhibit less anxiety than those still engaging in “Identity Exploration”. Common passions help people bond at a personal level. Instead of rolling solo it’s like, “Hey, let’s meet up and work out with Sasquatch”. Keep an open mind. If you give me a friend whose read a few books, you give me a dangerous enemy. If you give me a friend whose read a thousand books, you give me an interesting companion. All our divisions exist because we create and maintain them through our own belief in them. What you believe separates you is only your own projection. It’s only a matter of time before natives recognize their power, which is in the number.
Sacrifice, loyalty, commitment and dedication, with these 4 actions mountains can be divided and everything imaginable can be achieved. A person will win when they live by these morals. Most can’t see my vision therefore they lack the most simple principles that are accessible at any given time to us for us to be the best version of ourselves that we can be. I grew up a lot harder than other people and for each and every hard time in my life, I wanted the best for me so I pushed myself with the things and ways accessible to me. I plan for the best things in life and I never settle for anything less than the things I believe in and just to make sure you’re still following me, I believe in sacrifice, loyalty, commitment and dedication. I believe as long as you give any person or dream or goal for powerful actions you can’t lose. I desire to be the best version of myself that I can be, that I envision myself to be. It’s not about what or who anyone wants me to be, it’s about what is best for me that I envision for myself. A lot of successful in this world have met doubters and people that did not believe in their vision and they knew then that those people did not matter. As time went on they applied their sacrifice, commitment, dedication and loyalty and all of their goals and visions were achieved and they are still making more achievements as time goes on. We as people not shape, size or color we as people of this category shine bright and bright shiny things always attract people. It’s only natural, it’s just how it works. At this point and time things can and will get confusing because there will be losers that will try to attach themselves to you and they will drag you down. All a loser knows is basics, destruction and misery. Now that I have described “Loser” to you I can finish my thought LOL. It is your job to find these losers, recognize these losers and get them out of your life so you can achieve the best version of yourself that you can be. Thanks for following me in this time of my thoughts.