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March 16 2021
Let’s be judgement free.
To say that I haven’t had the best luck with this site would be an understatement. I’ve only had three people reach out to me, one of which in her second message said “I didn’t realize you had a violent charge. I’m only interested in talking to non-violent offenders.” I know she can’t be the only person to judge me based on my crime.
It’s okay, I can understand that. I’m sure she won’t be the last. We are a society who judges others without actually knowing them. Yes, I am a violent offender. I lived a hard and fast life for the year leading up to my arrest. A life of violence, aggression, and addiction. But before you too judge me, ask yourself this: “Is your past perfect? Have you never done something you regret? Have you ever hurt someone unintentionally? Or intentionally?”
Everyone has things in their past that they are not proud of. But, before you jump to conclusions and move onto the next profile, let me ask you: “Have you ever been proven wrong?” I’d love the opportunity to show you that being proven wrong can be a great thing. People can change. Sometimes the greatest people have the ugliest posts.
March 16 2021
My thoughts behind these four walls.
From my adolescent days until coming into maturity, it’s quite an amazing fulfillment. Life is such a phenomenal teacher to all of her students, and God is the greatest creator. I’m grateful for His many lessons and blessings. I was one to turn a deaf ear to words of wisdom when she knocked, nowadays I encourage all to drink from the fountain of understanding. It’s astonishing how we continue to persevere in the face of such racism, hatred, and suppression. Because even when I endured so called “freedom,” the restraints inflicted were always overbearing, but as a young black man I knew failure was not an option. So, despite my reckless decision making, I was truly engulfed by the thoughts of survival and achievement, and as of today I finally understand God’s discipline is truly growth and development.
So, I want to take a moment to genuinely apologize to all my loved ones for the emotional neglect I’ve caused while chasing such an illusion. For I have come to realize life is too precious for that, because as we see, one minute you’re here and then you’re gone.
Also, I have found it is not wise to pass judgement upon men, for you do not know the path of your future, nor do you know the decisions you may be confronted with.
Please understand, I’m not a man of pure perfection, nor will I pretend to be. I truly seek repentance and forgiveness for some of my actions. You see, I have come to acknowledge that forgiveness is essential to live itself. So, until next time, my love. Pardon oneself as I relax and begin to become captured by the true essences of my thoughts behind these four walls.
Christian Martinez #01919664
March 12 2021
*Remember to include your address when you write me through JPAY if you would like for me to respond.*
As I was doing some housekeeping I came across a few things I would like to share with my beloved friends. Since I see you all as sincere/caring individuals, I thought you should be aware of these organizations if you weren’t already. As always I want to remind my friends to do what they can to bring awareness to prison/criminal justice reform. Please look up and share “Human Rights Defense Center” and PrisonPolicy.org.
Please share these websites across all social media platforms. It was the Human Rights Defense Center and their magazine “Prison Legal News” that helped get our phone calls down to $.06/minute! We have a small voice in here but we can start a spark while you have the power to create a blaze. Please help us by bringing awareness to this stagnant cesspool that is the Department of Corrections.
For those who are interested in all that’s going on in these farms please read/share: “American Prison: A Reporters Undercover Journey Into the Business of Punishment” by Shane Bauer.
Writing from the largest silenced institution.
March 10 2021
Okay, so I’m beginning to think I’ve been doing this “blog stuff” wrong! Haha!
But, anyway, guess what? I’ve finally been transferred to Aliceville, Alabama, and I really think I’m going to like it here! Due to COVID quarantines and “cease movements” for travel, I had been waiting for this transfer since March 3rd of 2020.
Not once did I catch COVID, and for this I am so grateful! May God’s blessings keep everyone safe out there and let’s all pray that it ends soon!
Truly, Aurie (smile.)
P.S: I feel like I’ve been on facility lockdown/quarantine for an eternity now and I’m bored stiff! Please write me!
March 9 2021
Greetings and Salutations everyone!
I'm writing this blog today to let you know that over the last few years there has been an argument in the courts across America about whether to raise the juvenile age of violent offenders. Many courts have raised the juvenile age in other states. Now Massachusetts is taking up the argument. If Massachusetts raises the juvenile age, then that would affect me. That would make me a juvenile offender and give me the opportunity to get parole, moved to a minimum security prison, and be allowed programs not offered to 1st degree lifers.
Those of you that relish doing research, you could research Adolescent Brain Development in any search engine or you could go to westlaw.com and look up the case, Commonwealth v. Walt, 484 Mass 742 (2020). Go to page 754 to read the argument being made in the courts today.
All praise and the glory goes to God for this blessing. Thank you all for taking interest in me and my situation. I pray that you continue to share in my pursuit to gain my freedom and the process that I must go through to gain that freedom. Believe that I will move mountains to get to the other side of this fence that separates me from my family and friends and especially you.
Please allow us this opportunity to build something truly special out of our meeting one another and all of our correspondences. I won't disappoint you.
March 7 2021
Whether you are plushy, skinny, healthy, plump, average, or just fit, I would like to give you a big hug. But, due to situations beyond our control, I’ve taken the liberty to create this poem to bestow an artistic retrofit since I’m the one scared about soon earning the privilege for parole.
It really does matter to me what your gender, nationality, religion, or special seasoning because I am reaching out to social media for a very structured hand-up since soon I’ll be confronting an economy facing Covid-19 with social reasoning and my anticipation of positive thinking thrives daily, being really trumped-up.
Even though I’m a commodity of the Oregon Department of Corrections, I’d love to hear about your pros and cons of the environment you reside within, I’m open to correspondence, emails, phone calls, video visits of ICSCorrections.com then we could exchange ideas on art, cooking, entertainment & lifestyles.
So now that I have intimated something very unique for you to ponder about, my interests are designing jewlery, intellectual property, and mentoring folks. In lieu of my 29 years of abstinence, backing all compassions that surely sprout, to always effectively listen to anything. Life’s experiences provide masterstrokes.
Please feel free to reach out and share with me anything your heart desires, as my goal in life is to build community on honesty, respect, and always caring since this is how seeking a common ground will resolve all of life’s intensities. It’s only a single postage stamp to engage us in friendships’ thorough faring.
March 7 2021
December 2020 – I tried to think of a tasteful, self-deprecating way to begin this post, but unfortunately my meager wit failed me. Earlier this year, I was fortunate enough to win first place for an essay I entered in a prison writing contest sponsored by PEN America. I also received an honorable mention for a short story I submitted. The name of the former is “Little Gardens,” and the latter is “A Funny Story.” Should you be interested in reading either, I believe both can be found on PEN’s website (pen.org; search the site for “2020 Prison Writing Contest.”)
In addition to my various literary samplings, I’ve dabbled in writing a little over the years. I struggle with whether it’s obscene for a murderer to write, that my life sentences are best served mutely. It’s not something I’ve been able to resolve definitively, but for the moment I’ve erred on the side of rambling on paper. It’s a wonderful break from the monotony of this place, and I always try to write with a desire to never take myself too seriously. A sense of humor (even if sometimes of the gallows variety) has gotten people through much worse situations than my own.
If you enjoy what I’ve written, I’d be eager to hear from you; If you hate it, I’m even more interested in your critique. (Constructive, I hope.) I’ll stifle any inclination to close with a cliché about the redemptive power of writing – that would require a vastly better (or much worse) writer to attempt. Instead, I’ll thank you for your time. Should you choose to read my submissions, I hope they hold your attention for a little while.
Just Can't Find Love
March 7 2021
Prison sucks, right, duh, we all know this, but the suckiest part about prison is trying to find and maintain a serious relationship, especially if you’re like me and you’re actively looking for love. Jeez.
When I placed my ad several months ago, I thought “OK. I’m not a bad looking guy, I’m smart, I have a nice body, no kids, I should be able to meet a few interesting women who are looking for the same things that I am, right?” Nope, wrong, didn’t happen. Haha.
Don’t get me wrong, I received contacts, and I’ve met some amazing people, but they either already had boyfriends or somehow, we fell into the dreaded “Friendzone.”
There are just so many barriers to finding love while in prison. First, the pool of available women is so small, while the number of men vying for attention and affection is huge. Guys with the least amount of time normally do well, and of course, young guys do well.
For me, it’s not about the number of women that contact me because they find me attractive, I’m looking for love, so the quality of the relationship that can be developed is the most important thing to me, I don’t care about age (18 and over), weight, looks, or race. None of those things mean anything to me. Like I said, I’m looking for love. So, what does that mean? Well, for starters, it means picking up the phone whenever I call. Haha, no, but seriously, it means making me a priority, showing me that I hold a special place in your heart and life, because I’m going to do the same thing for you.
Maybe my expectations are just too high or maybe I’m making some other mistake that I’m just not seeing (like maybe my ad just isn’t that good.)
I would love to hear your thoughts on my dilemma, or you could share your own dilemma in seeking love with me, and yeah, I’m open to any good advice. Sheesh, I’m getting crushed out here, haha.
I promise to respond to all replies.
March 6 2021
If you feel misunderstood or judged in life, I can relate. I’m willing to listen. I’m determined to change that reality if you let me. Why is it whenever an innocent person gets killed by the police, people march and protest to bring global attention to that situation, but when innocent people get railroaded/framed by a crooked judicial system & get sentenced to life without parole, or placed on death row, our cries for help get ignored or just reach deaf ears? What would you do if you got found guilty of crimes you didn’t commit, and your public defenders are in cahoots to convict you? Before your death penalty hearing, the district attorneys tell your attorneys “We will take the death penalty off the table, only if your client agrees to waive is direct appeal rights.” Yet, your attorneys never bothered to explain the purpose of filling a direct appeal, and so forth. They only said sign this deal, or the state of Nevada will kill you. When you say no, they paint a horrific picture to the women in your family of the events that will take place while receiving the lethal injection. This ultimately makes them hysterical, begging you to accept the deal. Again, what would you do? People who are guilty usually ask for a plea deal to avoid going to trial. I never asked for one. I took it all the way to the box. Yet, the D.A and my attorneys made it look like I’m the one who asked for the said plea to cover up their actions. Please contact the court. Ask for a recording of my plea bargain deal. Notice you will hear my attorney answering most of the questions instead of me. Why is that? Does it sound like he’s coercing me to say yes?
P.S: It’s not the United States Post Office tampering with my mail. It’s the NDOC mailroom guards, as well as their supervisors, warden, prison director, etc.
Please contact the Postmaster General of Lovelock/Ely, Nevada, and New York. Tell them to review all my prison grievances concerning mail.
The Time Is Now
March 6 2021
My beautiful brothers and sisters, the time is now. We must put aside everything that hinders us mentally, physically, and spiritually. We must become very aware of the times that we are living in. We are currently being led further away from the path of supreme righteousness and taught to go against our own biological structure. Since we came out of the wombs of our mothers, we have been poisoned. We have been given synthetic love, synthetic knowledge, and synthetic leadership to the point that we hate what we see in the mirror. We must put away the childish arguments about race, religion, and life. We must understand that division of the people is the only way that we are controlled. We are controlled through our lack of knowledge. Instead of utilizing our intellect, we move completely out of emotions, and emotions not understood are dangerous. I beg you, supreme beings, everyone of this universe, to fall so deep in love with yourself that nothing else matters. You are worthy of everything great. The time is now, to rebuild your mind, body, and soul.