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October 9 2015
Well world, it is definitely me again! And while everyone, both behind these walls and beyond them, can find something to complain about, if they are only looking for the negative, I’d just like to send a shout out to express my appreciation for the attention and responses I’ve received from some of you out there.A few people have come and gone quickly and others may yet turn into lasting friendships, but to each and to all, I’d like to say thank you for taking my mind and soul above and beyond the artificial gangster mentality that, unfortunately, seems to enslave so many of our spirits in here. My outside contact may continue to be sporadic and unpredictable, but thanks to you, no longer exists!But as people continuously move into and out of all of our lives, I could always enjoy getting to know someone new, especially from places or different experiences than those I’m usually accustomed to. And, particularly to the ladies. As I’ve lived a life almost completely deprived from your presence and insights. Your thoughts are even more warmly received and cherished by me. I really value hearing what you have to say.I also realize it’s difficult to get a handle on just who it is your dealing with in these environments at any given point in time. So for those interested in getting to know a little more before dropping a line.
SETTING THE FACTS STRAIGHT
October 5 2015
I want everyone to know that I am only looking for friends. I need to focus on my freedom, and a relationship will only be counter-productive to that goal. Someone commented that I am only looking for someone to give me money. This is not true. Yes, I do need someone to print stuff from the Internet for me. I am also hoping someone would be kind enough to help me get the books I need and want. But this is not why I am on this site. I need friends. If my Facebook has an update saying I need stamps, it’s because most people don’t send any when they write and expect that I’m able to afford them. If you live overseas, stamps are needed even more due to the higher postage rates. Are these requests too much to ask of others? I’m not trying to get anyone to take care of me financially. Books and printouts are a small request that helps me deal with my time. I’m the one that needs help and has to depend on others. It’s not as if I can go out and get a job to support myself. But, aside from all that, what I really need is a friend. I need people in my life that will be encouraging to me and help me get through this nightmare. I need lots of letters. Most people have no idea what it’s like in here. I can’t trust anyone in here. I have no privacy. It’s so damn noisy, and I rarely get any peace and quiet. Drama is normal in this place. And, I’m constantly homesick. I have one regular visitor. I hardly see my family except for my sister every once in a while. My mom comes on special holidays. I haven’t seen my dad and brother in so long. My nieces and nephew hardly know me. It really hurts. I do my best to stay strong. Another thing, I need people in my life that won’t judge me. I respect everyone’s religion. But, I prefer that people don’t quote verses from the Bible to me. There are so many Bible thumpers in here that like to pray out loud, quote verses, and act holier than thou, yet act like hypocrites. My spirituality is a private matter. I follow the cycles of the seasons, phase of the moon, and study everything about nature. I believe in Karma, the Three-Fold Law, and the Law of Attraction. I believe in love, family values, and respect. I love everyone for who they are, and expect to be loved for who I am. I am trying to better myself, because I don’t ever want to make the same mistakes again. I meditate daily, write in a journal, and even in a dream journal. As for my bisexuality, I need to set the record straight on that. I was not gay before coming to prison. I had a man I loved, who is no longer in my life. I wanted to have kids. I got involved with women in here out of loneliness, and I did fall in-love with women in here. My heart was broken, and I was used. I have tattoos of women’s names I regret getting and plan on getting removed when I get out. But, in reality, I’d prefer to be with a man when I go home. Though, my family and friends will be my first priority over a relationship once I gain my freedom. I have a lot of catching up to do with my loved ones. So, I hope this clears everything up for anyone new curious about writing me. I do look forward to hearing from some new friends.
September 8 2015
I payed with my life over the character of another. Sometimes thinking about the past and how I was sent here I lose a tear or two. Anyone who knows me or writes me can tell you how intelligent and full of life I am. I’m a loving person and wouldn’t hurt a soul, but here I am facing uncertainty. Had I hired a attorney at the time of my trial, it would have been different. Sadly, I was a lower class minority with no money and given a court appointed lawyer that sent me spiraling down this legal web, because of the color of my skin. I lost my family and friends. I want to go home one day. How do these people live with themselves, I don’t know. Most people here need to be here without question, but there are a few that don’t belong. I am one of them. I have found a good attorney, but can’t afford him. In this world there are many good people out numbering the bad. Someone out there can help me. Please hear my cries and know that I am human and loved deeply. Anyone out there giving me another chance to flower, I would be most appreciative. Write me and know instantly I am like no other you have met. If ever I found a good soul needing a hand, I extend my hand without hesitation. Distress, I am with hands held high. Please help if ever there be good in this world.
August 29 2015
Congratulations! Why? Well, other than the obvious (super handsomeness-ish), how many dudes dream of growing and awesome mullet? Yeah, I know you've literally just won the WAP.com pen pal lottery! Thank my birth in 1986 for my propensity to flaunt a manly, bad-to-the-bone-George-Thorogood-song-in-the -background Kentucky Waterfall.Super classy.Okay, so I'm a goofball and you wither found this ridiculous, yet somewhat humorous, or you really believe that mullets are sexy/a sound and tasteful haircut, or you didn't get all of the above at all.If you agreed with the second, then I am truly a lucky pen pal lottery winner...seriously. Why?If you checked a mental yes to the last, well then I would suggest that you look elsewhere because sharing a sense of humor is paramount to any relationship!I moved to a new institution, with different rules, so please only send a post response, not electronic. Also, be sure to have your return address clearly visible and signature at the end of the response!Remember to live and appreciate today, forget yesterday and tomorrow doesn't exist, only now. Love life.
Trojan Horses (Cadent Humanitarianism)
August 3 2015
Trojan Horses (Cadent Humanitarianism)
Amid and regarding the classist infrastructure and use of The Georgian Death Penalty System, their afforded pro bono legal assistance to We The Indigent conspicuously consistently operates to “aid-and-abet” the oppressive “Pro-Human-Slavery” agenda of The State Of Georgia…I give voice to this insidious practice after now 24 years of physical imprisonment and personal observations and social interactions (also heated disagreements) with various court appointed Death Penalty lawyers – by now stating this: According to the language of “The Reconstruction Amendments” and the preamble of “The 13th Amendment (a.k.a. the abolishment of Negro slavery)”. The State Of Georgia has long since been observed and charged with the practice of setting up laws which were “contrived to perpetuate Negro slavery under other names”…Given the time honored practice of laches, procrastination, protraction, filibustering and organized shiftlessness blended with deliberate clerical acts of case law work burking and undermining (viz, burking and/or culling meritorious legal grounds from client’s legal argument(s) which ipso facto makes it all the more likely for The State to convict and/or execute pro bono/indigent clients). Combined with the extant disproportionate amount of modern day African American males incarcerated within the Georgia Prison System Corporation, plus! The 6th amendment Fundamental need and legal right to legal counsel: this leads me to the conclusion that most (though not all) Georgia pro bono Death Penalty attorneys (via passive consent, casual racism, connivance, complicity, casual exclusion, pseudo-humanitarianism, inegalitarianism, etatism, post-bellum southern partisan loyalty and/or genuine astigmatic naivity) are in actuality in practice of Law…Trojan horses in league with (and employed by) The State of Georgia” to perpetuate Negro slavery under other names (e.g. The Georgia Department of Corrections)” by affording modern day indigent African Americans pro bono clients with an approximation and/or THE APPEARANCE of legal representation…Which in practice serves/operates as a form of de facto racism. The conflation of Racism and Prevailing Operative American Classism often creates the perfect milieu for clouded views. And can (and oftentimes does) mislead…However!??? With “Billable Hours Hustle” in mind, what does remain consistently true and clear is this: The 1950’s met and learned and proudly practiced Jim Crow segregationist values and laws, here in Georgia. Here today (in the year 2015), we African American male prisoners are commonly represented by (and preyed upon and oppressed and enslaved by) his great-grand kids James and/or Jane Crow, Esq. – here in Georgia…the need to shed light on this specific form of disguised racial oppression (born of Institutional Racism) is a reality I’ve lived and observed for the last 24 years of my life…It is a most deleterious iniquity; and norm’. My name is Mr. DeMarcus Ali Sears: I’m 43 years old and I am currently on – Georgia’s Death Row…the effect/end result of laches – is client betrayal. Dissembling Trojan horses operating under the guise of Humanitarianism best describes Most court appointed Trial and Appellate Death Penalty Lawyers – here in Georgia…Don’t be fooled by “Niceties, Phatic Communion and/or Political Correctness”, you guys…They’re scam artists…basically poseurs, dissemblers…or to paraphrase Sir William Shakespeare: Oftentimes the sharpest of daggers are concealed and/or hidden behind the brightest of smiles…SEE, Matthew Chapter 23/verse 28…Their slights end lives. The vestiges of racial and economic discrimination take many forms. Jim Crow, James Crow, Jane Crow: Rarely does the fruit fall far from the tree. You guys…It’s called “Atavism” and/or Learned Patterned Behavior…SEE Ferguson, Missouri…as ever “Mr. DeMarcus Ali Sears”.
Things I Can’t Control
June 16 2015
Prison life is far from easy. You like to think you are in control of everything but you can’t control forced interaction. This past weekend I ended up in the hospital with a broken nose, a split lip and two black eyes from getting in a fight with my cellie. I’m not a fighter by any means but my old cellie was a psychotic nut job who went on an episode and I was unfortunately the one forced to fight back in defending myself. As I sit in an isolation cell in transit waiting to go back to population I think about all the poor people forced to share a cell with the worst, heartless human beings. In the world you can just turn your cheek but in here sometimes you get the bad end of the stick and are sleeping with a cold hearted murderer that is pure evil. The way some of these people behave just kills me. Pure animals. It’s hard to find normal people in here but the few that are in here I’m sticking close to. I hope to write people who can actually understand some of what goes on in here and not believe others when they say life is all gravy in here.
March 19 2015
Moving up in the prison world, taking advantage of every opportunity, bettering myself with education and vocational programs (G.E.D., College, Horticulture and Masonry), wasting time in no option at this point.
Feeling bad, stressing or any other negative thoughts isn’t going to change what’s ahead of me. My sense of humor helps me through those self made “Rainy Days”. I like to stay busy and keep my mind occupied with positivity; therefore I have little tension around me. There’s no perfection, I’m just saying I just have a lot more positive energy than anything. I’m doing my best to better myself. Friends and family are supportive and do what they can. It’s just on me to build a strong foundation for my future.
With that said, I like meeting new people and enjoying good conversation. I’d like to hear and maybe learn from your experiences. Share stories and build a friendship. I’m more mature for my age than usually assumed, so I’d like for our qualities to be close and intertwined. Loyalty is a must and I understand it is earned. My friendship is strong, understanding and more meaningful to me than anything. I pray I’ve made a decent impression and that you can find the time to correspond. So please have a great day. Peace and blessings.
February 27 2015
(Blog 1) It’s hard to stay in touch with my family after being away for 16 years. You all know how it is out there, it’s a hustle keeping up with everything and easy to overlook someone in my situation. I’m trying to find help from someone willing to add blogs, pictures, messages, and poetry to my facebook page so that I can keep my family posted on how I’m doing. If you think that you can be dedicated and it’s in your heart to help me, then write me and lets start, because this is something I’ve wanted to do for a long time. Thank you!
(Blog 2) How many people sincerely get on this site looking to find someone to write? I gotta ask because I know I’m not a bad guy. The worse thing about me is that I’ve been in prison since I was a id. But I get mail like I’m not even on this site. I’m just throwing this out there because I wanna hear from and meet more people. But you gotta write me. And yes I know, writing sucks sometimes, but also I am able to call you. And if we like who we meet through writing, I will pay for my own calls to chop it up with you. So hit me up because if I could, I’d hit you up.
(Blog 3) Do you like Taylor Swift, poetry, tattoos, and slim dudes with nice attitudes? If so, write me, you have nothing to lose….
February 15 2015
Hello! Something pretty amazing has happened to me! After being at Close custody facilities for over 23 years, I was transferred to a Medium prison on January 14, 2015. This is a huge step on my journey to rejoin society. I feel like my positive attitude and behavior is being recognized and rewarded. Now the burden is on me to prove that I deserve this opportunity. My primary goal is to complete the sex offender treatment program here. I am already confident I will never re-offend, but this will give me some important insight and tools to help ensure that never happens. I am committed to seeing it through, despite having no illusions that this will be a fun experience. Other important goals include completing my college degree, taking more vocational training and preparing for my Lifer Review in 2018. Also, a few people have left me no way to contact them when answering my ad. An email, via Corrlinks is awesome, but my state doesn't currently allow me to email back. That’s supposed to be changing when Minnesota switches to Jpay sometime in 2015. Until then, I need and address for snail mail. Others have provided addresses that return mail as un-deliverable. Please check that your address is typed out correctly. I answer everyone who contacts me as I know how much it hurts to reach out to someone and get only silence. A new facility. A new world. Hope there are no slugs..
I Appreciate the Letters!
May 9 2014
Expressing myself can be hard for me. But writing somehow relieves negative tension. Day after day the same routine occurs. The constant repetitive nature of prison can drive you insane. I am thankful that this website has brought me to meet a few interesting people, and receive some nice pictures. I am especially thankful for the people who are non-judgmental and open spiritually to new beginnings. I am always open to making new friends, and never judge someone by their past alone. The lifestyle in here is sometimes hard for people to relate to, and I love when there are people who can sympathize with practices in prison they have never experienced. I love nature and am always first out when they call
outside recreation. Despite popular misconception, my prison does not call it that often, even though the law says they are supposed to. There can not be much compensation for the loss, but I do say receiving letters and pictures in the mail makes me feel just a little bit "free". Again, I thank the people who take the time to write. Jason