How does it feel to be isolated
And deprived of life’s bare essentials?
Enduring pain that exceeds emotions
And is far beyond mental.
To most, these feelings are exotic
And may never be comprehended
I attempt to evade them
But I’m always apprehended
While confined to this cage
The psychological ability is tested.
Will I pass? Or...
In all my eagerness, for success to be reached
I remain poised, as still as the sign that says
Stop no longer distracted by the noise…
Hearing the world more clearly, a melody I can’t
forget, the universal signs & my thoughts collide
as I try not to slip…How often do these raindrops
drip & puddles form on the ground. Sometimes
I stare at my reflection through them...
If I had another chance I’d tell you
that the things “we” had were right and
I threw it all away.
Time cannot erase the love and memories
we shared, but it does give me time to reflect
and realize just how much you loved me.
Now that it’s over and your gone for good,
I’m really not the same anymore. I guess I
Once, I was afraid I would never find someone
To really care about.
I wanted someone perfect,
At least for me.
A special kind of talking,
An honest way of listening without judgment;
Not being afraid to laugh or cry;
Kindness and understanding;
Fun, love and excitement;
Someone who would lift my heart with joy.
I guess that I expected a lot,
In the mountains
The air is fresh and clear
In the mornings we breakfast on the patio, birds are singing
And the dawn is full of anticipation
The Earth is alive,
With the Sun comes hiking through meadows, cannon balls
Into icy water, finding new fishing holes or
Returning to reliable ones.
When eagles go to their aerie, bats come out in force
We’ll eat what we caught and...
“How do you Know?”
Laughing when your mad,
Smiling when your angry,
Crying when your happy,
Frowning when your pleased,
Giggling when your agitated,
Screaming when your titillated,
Thirsty when your wet,
Saturated when your dry,
Calm when your livid,
Serene when your mean,
What you have never known,
THAT’S HOW YOU KNOW!
I sit back and watch the rain fall slowly as I write these words.
I hear the undeniable destruction as the thunder hits its victim.
I’ve decided against being a victim so I look for a place to hide,
Only to find there’s nowhere to hide.
I must now use my mind to circumvent the destruction.
While thinking of a plan, the lightning attempts to distract me.
But I instead helps...
In Search of Love
I don’t love some of you, I love all of you…
Your smile, the twinkle in your eyes, the way you
Walk, beautiful the sound of your voice when
Love will overlook any flaw that you may see, because in my eyes
I’ve got the woman, my Queen. Someone with...
Real Recognize Real
You can either take my hand or take my word for it
If you're gonna play these corners caused the streets are slippery
And if you aint got nobody to guide you thru them
Then your fall for whatever it has to offer
I only know because of the niggas that came before me
They was getting seasoned while I was thawing out
Then they passed the game down to me
It was free, I just...
Take A Chance
Whimsical whispers like the wind
Tend to dazzle, excite and delight.
Awakening your inner curiosity,
But somehow you continue to fight.
Why not let go of all your inhibitions,
Give in to those feelings and explore?
Is what’s holding you back that serious,
Or does your soul want, need and hunger for more?
Life can move at an alarming rate,
Admire My Taste Part 2
Tonight we dine out…5 star restaurant in your direction…I think I might pick that medium rare to savor that flavor, what you think? …Pop a bottle of something aged well…while I scan every detail and alias of upscale cuisine, yeah well it seems you all over the menu love…
I think I’ll have that fresh catch drowned in Orchid Meadow, excellent choice, huh. I...
The vodka on your breath
Could make a small boy dizzy;
But I hung on like death;
Such waltzing was not easy.
We romped until the pots
And pans slid from the kitchen shelf;
My mother’s expression could not
Unfrown itself, the hand that
Held my wrist was battered on one knuckle;
At every step you missed
My right ear scraped a buckle.
You beat time on my head
With a palm...
Who will be here
Who will stay
How will I make it through today
Lie to me that's fool
Who will make me smile
I need love where could it be
I'm hungry with nothing to eat
Who will be my beauty to this beast
Keep positive thoughts around criminal minds
Who can I count on through hard times
They claim I’m insane,
That I can’t control my inner cycles.
That my mind’s fickle
That somehow I laugh when it don’t tickle
That I’m so broke
I feel rich with a nickel.
That if the worlds collided in the middle
I’m the pickle
My ways don’t trickle
to the next kid. That if indeed I tripped...
The words I speak are true, if you do not believe me listen to the news.
You say nothing is going to happen, but have you forgotten disasters?
You say all is good and okay, but why do you stay?
I am the Lord your creator, so please let me do you a favor.
I am the creator of Heaven and Earth, and I have known you before birth.
Let me sing a song of truth, before you receive the...
I dream of a day of success, a day when poverty and struggle no longer exist in my life.
But it's just a dream some say! An unreachable goal! They say I dream to big!!!
These are the words of a dreamless fool with no destination.
So I laugh, and I hold fast-I hold fast to my dreams with an unreleaseable death grip to overcome my past. To overcome a life of wearing the black mask of lies and deception....
At times I’d rather write my thoughts than sit and write my family.
Expressions of my youth reflect through truth and understanding.
The problem with that is understanding has been amiss.
So expressions of a twisted individual are what exist.
Should I take a razor to my wrists?
Never that, I live for pain.
Numbness to emotion would only drive a man insane.
The way I see it...
"The Power of Forgiveness"
As I sat in that courtroom
Awaiting my fate,
My victim looked back
Into a face, she must hate.
When her eyes met mine,
Instead of aversion,
I saw only love,
To the point of immersion.
While locked in her gaze,
Unable to budge,
She said these sweet words,
Releasing her grudge.
"You deserve to be...
Gone But I hope I’m Not Forgotten
Here today but as the wind blows I sway but neither here or there
I’m planted in drab shades of grey, from black I fade, I’m gone…
Hope I am still here and present in the minds of some, though the majority of them
Deaf or dumb or maybe just mindless ones in a zone of timeless webs of thought
Hope I am not forgotten…...
An eagle’s sigh
And majestic tear
The raven’s reply
For never being here
A memory of tomorrow
And I’ll bet it’s windy
And tears of a clown
What’s that about
And all begins to speak
And all begins to leak
That needs meaning
And time to really think
Just My Thoughts
These is just my thoughts as I sit here in this four cornered room.
Sentenced to a lifetime of hell in this penitentiary cell
Inflicted by all the pain I’ve caused, by the mistakes I’ve made and all the wrongs I’ve done.
“Like I said, these is just my thoughts.”
I’ve shed so many tears over the years and conquered all my penitentiary fears....
“A WISH FOR YOU”
WISHING YOU: To be peaceful in mood!
YOUR HEART: Tap in happiness!
YOUR FEELINGS: Joyful,
vivid in all of the emotional colors!
YOUR SOUL: Free,
to be in oneness with nature!
YOUR SPIRIT: Alive,
with versatility arise to meet all of your high values and goals!
YOUR HEALTH: Robust,
as a beautiful flower takes from the sun and rain...
Time and time again
Senseless violence takes
A friend, brother, sister
Mother, father or child
All the while,
The world keep spinning around.
Another soul lost
Too many tears shed
Feelings of emptiness surround us
Another great human is dead.
Nipsey Hussle left us
But his name and music
Will forever live on,
Music played everywhere,
His name spoken from...
Benevolence and faith it takes
For friendship forged anew,
The mysteries of destiny
Then come gradually into view,
When the universe has crossed our paths
And our stars have been aligned,
We’ll find if all has been in vain
Or is righteous and divine,
For time reveals the truth or things
And the contents of...
“The Journey of Life”
It twists and turns
With mountains to climb
And fires that burn
Shaped at a young age
So vulnerable and pure
Life at full speed
Is how we must learn
The good times and bad
Is a part of it all
When climbing a mountain
Sometimes you will fall
With each step we take
Comes pleasure and pain...
THE HORUS FILES
Right before my eyes I observe the sands
of time sift through the hour glass….And yet
the horizon is unchanged….
Life slowly fading from my father quickening his
Right before my eyes I see my wing span reach
in two directions aiming to span this world,
I yearn to embrace my mother fully, her wisdom
so inviting and mighty…..
“This P.O.E.M. is the (Product of Every Man):
I feel I’ve come a long way,
Although there are memories in my past dark and grey,
Or I’m locked away, for forever and a day;
I still see the sun’s ray.
I’m real, in the gardens I play,
There’s nothing false I’d every portray.
Years ago, I would’ve tried shooting the light out of the sky,
Not knowing why; now I look to the...
This being human is a guest house
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
Some momentary awareness comes
As an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
Who violently sweep your house
Empty of its furniture,
Still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
For some new delight...
Dreams of Reality?
Last night I had the most beautiful dream
It was so real or so it did seem
I woke up from my slumber and a visitor appeared
It was you standing there, your eyes filled with tears
I pulled you close and whispered, “Baby don’t cry”
“I’ll always love you til the day I die”.
I held you and kissed the tears from your face
The tears dissolved and a smile took their place
Fallen down deep into a pit of despair,
Gasping at breaths but purchasing no air.
Once free to roam without any cares,
Now just a creature in an inextricable snare.
What can the purpose of this life be?
Fighting battles in darkness no one can see.
The enemies are vast, fearless and bold
There’s silence and sadness here in this cold.