As I sit here motionless
feeling like all life has ceased, feeling claustrophobic
breaking night in this unbearable box till the break
of dawn, fabricating the idea of what type of different
or the same lifestyle awaits my return to its presence
pondering with the thought if it’s gonna be out of
control. Before I came back to prison, I rather drop
dead where I stand. All this...
Simple Man, With a Simple Dream
I’m just a simple man, with a simple dream. I long for the happiness, simple brings just a simple life, with simple means;
With simple things;
simple joys, simple relations,
simple friendships and associations.
I’m just a simple man, with a simple dream.
A Mysterious Being
You are beautiful, intelligent, mysterious
and when I see your face,
hear your voice the Unicorn comes to mind.
A beautiful beast that holds countless possibilities,
beckoning me to come explore the wonders
of your being.
The Intelligence that’s seen in your eyes
washes me away in a sea of bliss.
Only to laying me upon the beach of your...
My mind clear and feeling free,
Giving a sense of serenity,
Only seeing my point of destiny.
With my heart beating like a fine-oiled machine,
Pushing blood to places that are in need,
My lungs pulling air for my body to breathe.
With a slap, slap, slap, slap my feet pushing and pulling,
So that even when I feel I can't go anymore, I keep going.
A Look Within
Patience and persistence is detrimental
to one’s existence, whether you’re
living good or going through a tough
transition. Life is hard, problematic, and truly
vicious, most fight through the tension by
conforming to some type of religion. It really
doesn’t matter if you’re Muslim, Catholic, or
Christian, without an understanding and faith
When you look at me
And witness my personality,
What do you see?
Don’t be cliché or superficial;
Try to paint a detailed, fuller picture.
Assign characteristics, but then tell my why.
And if you can go deep, tell me why to that why,
As you try to undress my mind
To get a deeper understanding of the “me” in front of the “I”.
I pray to God, hoping He’ll send me my best friend, girlfriend,
Fiancé, wife to me through this here pen-pal thing.
I’ll be the realest man she’ll ever know!
If your heart’s feeling what I’m saying, and you are looking
For a man like me, please get at me!!!
No lies, no games will make a strong relationship…
I’ll be waiting on you love!
While dreaming one night, I had dreamt
A tale to tell…
I dreamt I saw an Angel. She wasn’t looking
Her body bruised and battered; wings ripped
I saw she could barely walk, She was tired
And all so worn.
Walking over to the Angel, I had asked how
This could be?
She could only look up at me. As she did her best
To smile. As she said...
The Song Bird Parable
Look inside of my cage
And you will find shade, only in reliance…
For I am a caged song bird
Whose face drowns in torrents, but yet I sing!
Perched on my swing,
I flap and flutter in temperance
My bandaged wings, hurt!
From the fowler’s sling, the foulest thing…
But, but…My crown is king and kingdom
Sky, like, you can...
What is Prison?
People think of prison as only bricks and steel,
But there are so many other forms of prison that are just as real.
Like the young girl who seeks to be loved and jumps from man to man,
She’s a prisoner to her own emotions, she just doesn’t understand.
Or the young man who steals and deals to get what he can get,
He’s a prisoner on his way to prison, he just doesn...
Yesterday is today
Tomorrow is forever
Last week was seven years
My mind is a cloud that sits on the ground
Life is a maze while I'm lost in space
Thoughts spin into sound then bounce around
Then get lost in ether
My Birthday came then went away
The meaning of the number 8
The ghost that haunts me is past
People come but never last
An akward kid picking his...
I’m just a simple man…
A simple man in search of his equal
An equal mind that understands, one who’s virtuous
To find her, I strive for perfection
The honesty of a real man
So many years I’ve searched along the lines of
But fail to find…
My strong opposite of an equal mind.
I’ve dealt with so many...
I say spiritual, they say biblical.
I believe in self, they say it’s a miracle.
They believe in help, I believe it’s in the individual,
Living in hell has made me a little cynical.
I believe that doubt restricts the physical
and fear amounts to living miserable,
and it counts to be an individual
and what you're about will be residual.
Hope to me is life. Without hope there is no life.
Hope is what keeps me breathing, hope that someday
things will get better. Hope that I can change,
that others will see that change.
Hope that the future will be less painful than the past.
Hope that freedom exists outside of me. Hope that
God exists for me. Hope that I’m not too old
or too late, not too much nor...
See my pain
Hear my pain
Feel my pain
It’s all the same
The origin of it began
Right here where I stand
Where on a consistent basis
I'm treated less than a man
This can’t be the plan
When will my anguish ever end
Will it be when I'm dressed
Tucked away in a box
Or when a judge hears me
And release me from this block...
The Love of the Season Autumn
In the crisp gentle wind of fall
You can see the beautiful brown autumn leaves big and small
Jack-O-Lanterns, bats and candy corn delight the children
But the biggest treat of all lies within them
A big smile across their face is what parents seek
To see their bright faces say “Trick or Treat”.
A time of Harvest, the season is of plenty
Imagine waking up everyday
Getting out of bed to seize the day
Followed by a ritual and daily task
Of brushing your teeth, washing your face, and putting on your mask
Then walking out your inhabitant like everything is okay
You know, déjà vu of yesterday
That’s life for me.
Look being this mask that too is what you’d see
Though this mask is purely a façade in which prison life...
I’m so symbolic
Broke the 1st rule of fight club
Sacred truths so mystery
I don’t even know it.
Editor N Chief
1st N8V on the moon
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The damned urban NDN
P.S. Look at the forest. The straight trees are chopped down. The crooked...
A freezing wind chills the air around the ice shrouded mound.
There at the pinnacle, a forlorn, dying oak stands tall,
Skeletal branches void of leaves clawing skyward abound.
Unloved and forgotten, yet refusing ever to fall.
Don’t doubt how I know of this desolate place dead as bone,
For the visage shaped by the bark is my very own.
Shackled within my eternal winter, inside I cry
~Reflections~ Part 1
Precious reflection of mine, allow us to reflect on the rejections of time as we inspect the misconceptions of the neglections of a unique mind…
Confined conflict refines chaos by declining to impersonate. Designing a mined mind defined by defiance and inner reliance, not compliance. Resulting in an alliance with my higher self. Severing a resistance that always existed but was often mistaken as assistance...
POWERS THAT BE
My ancestory by way of BLOODLINE is ROYALTY, but the (POWERS THAT BE) is not trying to reward me my birthright…
Historically their thievery reminds me of the Knightriders sponsored by the U.S. Government whom took Black Folk properties by intimidation tactics…
Automatics in hand...
Ur beautiful black cat I want u to know that
Ur beautiful black cat I want u to show that
Ur beautiful black I want to have that
Ur beautiful black and I know what u mad at
U glide thru the night and I admire ur strength
But hidin from the world has made it had to find yourself
Understand u did what u had to do to survive
Dark nights but now it’s bright and I want u to thrive
The Inquest (Scattered Moments)
Amid the daily atmosphere of obstreperous condemned men-children and the recurring high pitched ringings of large deadbolt keys heavily colliding (swaying to-and-fro affixed to the belt lines of prison guards hurriedly slamming heavy steel doors while making security-check-rounds in passing)----scattered moments of abrupt silence allow my ears to clearly see the liquid confessions of my heart...
The thought of falling in love again
Has kept my heart from aching
And though it’s worn upon my sleeve
It has no room for breaking
But nothing is ever set in stone
There are risks with every start
And if that’s what it takes to find the one
I’ll let them tear me apart
And every time I’m put back together
I’m left with the Q, what for?
Admire My Taste Part 2
Tonight we dine out…5 star restaurant in your direction…I think I might pick that medium rare to savor that flavor, what you think? …Pop a bottle of something aged well…while I scan every detail and alias of upscale cuisine, yeah well it seems you all over the menu love…
I think I’ll have that fresh catch drowned in Orchid Meadow, excellent choice, huh. I...
When the time comes,
Will you say hello...
Open your arms,
Embrace me and welcome me home…
Can I sit and rest my feet
Quiet moments let them speak.
You were lost
Drifted away in the currents of the streams…
In Search of Love
I don’t love some of you, I love all of you…
Your smile, the twinkle in your eyes, the way you
Walk, beautiful the sound of your voice when
Love will overlook any flaw that you may see, because in my eyes
I’ve got the woman, my Queen. Someone with...
“Son of Man” Jesus The Final Judgement
When the Son of Man comes and His glory and all the angels with him, then He will sit on His glorious throne.
Before Him will be gathered all the nation’s and He will separate people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats. And He will place the sheep on his right, but the goats on the left. Then the King will say to those on...
Jesus, what’s up dogg?
Why you keep playin?
Come into my heart already,
you know I’ve been prayin!
I need you now more than ever,
I admit that I’m a sinner!!
Turn me from a loser,
And make me into a winner!!
Drugs have stolen my soul,
Please take away my desire!!
And instill in me some honesty,
I meant to hold you today
I meant to give you the touch
You needed so much,
I meant to give you a hug.
Instead my fears got the best of me and
I walked off with a shrug.
I meant to tell you I love you
I meant to pull you close and
Tell you how much I care.
I meant to show you what you mean to me
I meant my love for you to feel and see.
Instead my fears got the...