Darkness and loneliness fill my cell
With pain and fear too great to yell.
I wait for the mailman
To deliver a letter to me
As I wipe away tears
That no one will see.
I pray so sincere
With my head bowed to the heavens above
“Please God! Soon! Send a letter of love”.
I long to gaze upon pages so dear
Written riches on pages
“The Devils Own”
Sittin in Hell sharin Satans seat
Battlin Demons Angel Sweet
Lost in notions misconceived
Bound by chains, most intrigued
Freein thoughts deceptions bind
Devourin spirits of the darkest kind
Much like Rensell with a beautiful mind
I envisioned peace with God aligned...
Songs of Fire
I rise from the ashes to my knees,
From my knees to my feet,
Then I spread my arms out wide
As they metamorphose into wings,
My attention is fueled by the desire
To transcend myself higher and higher
As my vices are consumed by the fire;
The fire of which is my attire
At the peak of my climb I become refined
With a renewal of the spirit and mind
The Phoenix Files Continued
Today…I burned my old flame
I was on my way up and she
Was on her way…
In that, I could give two broken
Celibacy vows and honeymoons
Though I doubt a gift to give would
Be easily received…in doubt.
Today…I burned my old emotions.
I experienced a surge of whatever
In my urgent operation...
My Road to No Where
It's hard to stay focused and in touch with my dreams
To block out the voices and misguiding screams.
They echo in my mind and tell me the wrong road to take...
Attracting me to a world where everything is fake.
Including my feelings and dreams that I chased...
Now I'll always have memories of years gone to waste.
I buried all my feelings and blocked out all...
Only In A Dream
A shattered heart minded in the blink of an eye
Pains of relationships past fade away simply from your presence
A feeling of bliss, true love, and serenity overwhelm me
All things thought to be none existent
Brought to reality by the woman of my dreams
This can only be heaven sent.
Yet in a blink of an eye it all fades away
The pains buried deep within remain...
“Today I touch base with a friend, hoping she can hear me”
Tomorrow I wait for the day I touchdown, and she meets the real me
True men do exist, yet they’re hard to find
Someone with the Heart of Gold, so real, so kind
Everyone has flaws and imperfections, no one is perfect
But when we learn to see through the physical, we are perfectly imperfect
In our own ways we share our minds with others...
It’s been an amazing journey to this place where we are to be the lovers that we’ve become. This kind of love takes time. We started out, like so many do, with nothing but dreams in our pockets and stars in our eyes and oh, how we enjoyed the adventure!
But along the way, we met our share of obstacles, sometimes we got tripped up, and life took us on a detour or two. But with every step, we stayed in...
These eyes have seen the worst of life and a little of the best. I’ll always be who I am.
These eyes have seen gang wars that ended with people dying in the street, for what reason we’d taken another man’s life.
These eyes have seen broken homes and shattered dreams due to habitual drug use. Mom or Dad getting high is not an excuse.
These eyes have seen prison cells from the inside looking out, vowing never to return, but...
We all came from the stars, and we rose from the dust
we taught each other hatred, and different forms of lust
Creating perfection, must have taken time
your dreams and ideas are unique to mine
but our opinions, can make us blind
Our personal perceptions, are ours to create
but our love for one another, should not be a debate
If we want to live, our life with love
then look into...
A beautiful person is someone who gives so much to others. A beautiful person is someone who is helpful and caring in every situation. A beautiful person is someone who takes time to listen. A beautiful person is someone who makes another feel special and important. A beautiful person is someone who is there for you even when they have their own life to worry about.
Are you that beautiful person?
A Fathers Prayer
The longing in my life is not a prayer for me, in the deep watches of the night I pray not selfishly.
I lift her life to you, her heart I know you love. I cannot protect her now below, please protect her from above.
You see her needs as I cannot, you hear her prayers I know, you feel her tears upon your cheek, please hold her as I go.
No man could love her as I do, no heart could miss her so....
Dance Me Outside
She was arrayed in purple and scarlet. With hair black as choke cherries, her eyes the brightest obsidian beneath dark lashes. Hips don’t lie and I marveled with great amazement. Never have I envisioned a more carnal enchantress of an Isis or Cleopatra, Queen of the Damned, perfumed in Prada, knowing she was trouble. 180 proof, her cup was mixed double. “Pretty Little Thing, Owl Dance with Me”. She said, “Would you...
Make It Up To You
I've been in jail since you’ve been months old, I know.
And I know you’re angry because your face and voice tell me so.
In your eyes I've only been a disappointment to you and your brothers.
But when you look at it, it’s not just y’all, it’s plenty others.
I haven’t taught you anything that a father should.
But I praise your mother because she’s doing everything she could...
Snow On The Rose
I’m a rose that grows
Through the cold of snow
Inside the veins that flow
In the depths of the Earth that’s low
Beneath the skins of our bodies will show
Our true natures glow
My thorns protect my delicate soul
From the hands of a careless foe
And my son helps me grow to endure
The winds that...
Do you know sometimes I dream of you at night?
To be able to feel your sadness is never alright.
Maybe no one seems to understand that your dreams are nightmares.
Going through different doors of your life where no one cares.
All you wanted was someone who knew how to feel and understand.
That special someone who would always hold your hand.
The place of joy and happiness we haven't been to in...
I’m waiting for my time to come.
Or waiting until my time is done.
They say there is no way that I can make it home but I plan on
I’m waiting on a letter but it seems like no one wants to write.
So I end up stressing swinging on anyone who wants to fight.
I’m waiting on a money order so I could get a pair of sneaks.
If no one can
see my tears do they
still count? if my heart
skips like kids often do,
does that mean I’m in
love? if my past
could speak, would it tell
my future, if fairy tales
were true, would love’s
kiss awaken me? if life
were a woman, could we
make love forever? If
someone writes me a
few words, could that
start a chapter...
The words I speak are true, if you do not believe me listen to the news.
You say nothing is going to happen, but have you forgotten disasters?
You say all is good and okay, but why do you stay?
I am the Lord your creator, so please let me do you a favor.
I am the creator of Heaven and Earth, and I have known you before birth.
Let me sing a song of truth, before you receive the...
All around nothing but white
But everywhere you look, you can see signs of life
A snowman dressed with grandpa’s old clothes
The little children make Frosty with a smiling pose
The joy of life can never be more present
The presence of snow is always its own link
It shows us there is more to life than we idly think
As a blizzard prevents all work and movement
Just received the heart-rending news late today,
My best friend died a sudden death yesterday.
When the whole wide world was completely a drain,
You were there to ease the unbearable pain,
Always helping to keep me mentally sane.
Now I’m having trouble living in this space
Got me feeling like I’ve stumbled, losing this race
Chasing the memories of your fleeting face.
Mind is the Master
Sustain the intellect, obtain the benefit, proclaim what heaven sent,
because you are ordained and its evident.
Look around and tell me what you see.
I see kings and queens with great minds who think just like me.
Is it coincidental
That we come to exchange vibrational energy that funds our mental?
Learning is not fundamental.
It is the sending and receiving of what’s...
And you will always be alone;
People die, so love them every day.
Beauty fades, so look before it’s gone.
Love changes, but not the love you give.
And if you love, you will never be alone.
How many times must my life come undone?
How many years must I be alone?
As I stand beneath the fires of an unforgiving sun.
I’ve danced with fallen angels.
I’ve forsaken all of my dreams.
I’ve let the demons render my soul with all their needful things.
How many times must I walk this beaten path?
How many tears will turn my heart to stone?
As I stand before the liars who spread their hatred...
The Inquest (Scattered Moments)
Amid the daily atmosphere of obstreperous condemned men-children and the recurring high pitched ringings of large deadbolt keys heavily colliding (swaying to-and-fro affixed to the belt lines of prison guards hurriedly slamming heavy steel doors while making security-check-rounds in passing)----scattered moments of abrupt silence allow my ears to clearly see the liquid confessions of my heart...
A freezing wind chills the air around the ice shrouded mound.
There at the pinnacle, a forlorn, dying oak stands tall,
Skeletal branches void of leaves clawing skyward abound.
Unloved and forgotten, yet refusing ever to fall.
Don’t doubt how I know of this desolate place dead as bone,
For the visage shaped by the bark is my very own.
Shackled within my eternal winter, inside I cry
The Value Of Friendship
FRIENDSHIP: Is the appreciations of all beings humans, animals, plants, etc….
The harmony and natural order of life!
FRIENDSHIP: Is godly in character!
FRIENDSHIP: Is being kind, being mindful, being respectful,
I looked in the mirror and who did I see?
The fading reflection of the woman I used to be.
A past cannot change, and I don’t think I would.
By making peace with the past, I’ll remember where I once stood.
Through hard times and valleys, abuse and betrayal,
Satan tried to steal the wind from my sail.
My past is behind me and there it will stay,
But I carry the lessons forward each day.
Dedicated to every woman striking a pose in my picture collection…
Beauty Before Me
Once upon a moment we shared,
That look in her eye, do I dare?
In a quiet place, our hearts be still,
A rush to judgment, but was she there?
God forsake my wandering mind
Or could it be that sparked divine?
What questions mill beneath affinity,
Will he rush or bide his time?
My desire begins...
I don’t cry,
My tears are tattoos..
I fear no man,
God sees me through…
This life is a struggle,
But my heart remains strong…
I’m confined away from freedom,
But my freedom’s beyond…
All these bars,
And barbed wire fences…
I hold tight to my faith,
And believe in my wishes…
My dreams are alive,...