Many years ago, I was an angry teenager with an unwavering sense of loyalty and my best friend turned out to possess all the traits of a serial killer. I was gullible and naïve and I’m the sort of fool who remains loyal to the bitter end. It was a recipe for disaster that caused a lot of grief and heartache and cost me many years of my life. I’ve been incarcerated since 1998…I was 16 when it all began.
At first, I was consumed with bitterness over the injustice of the “justice system” though I made some terrible choices, I’m honestly not guilty of the charges. I was persuaded to plead guilty in order to avoid 2 life sentences. The first decade I was always into something – fighting, tattooing, staying stoned in a futile attempt to numb myself. I literally spent years in the hole before I finally grew up and realized my situation isn’t hopeless – I have a release date.
I also realized that having a life in the free world that didn’t include coming back to prison depended on making significant changes in my way of life. I understood that school and self-help programs were only helpful if I put in the effort to develop a better education and build new behavior patterns.
It’s been a gradual process but the man I am today is far removed from the kid I was 22 years ago. I’m far from perfect, but I’ve come a long way and even after all these years in a world of violence, deception and game; I still have a healthy sense of humor and I still believe in loyalty, honesty and trust. On these rare occasions that I develop a real connection with someone, my friendship is still unconditional and without limits – though I’m far more careful about who I’m friends with these days.
I have a very active and vivid imagination and I enjoy expressing it through drawing and creative writing. I enjoy reading and watching movies and football. I love animals and I’m a big fan of science fiction and fantasy…I love to laugh and always try to make the most of every day and keep an optimistic outlook on life while also being a realist.
I’m not sure what to expect in posting this but I hope to meet someone who understands that not everyone with a terrible past is a terrible person. I’m not interested in financial support or material gain. I just want to meet someone I can talk to and enjoy getting to know.