For years of being in prison I’ve had to constantly be on guard to survive behind these walls. Being in a place with so many predators I can’t show weakness because if I do I will be eaten alive. So I maintain an aura of “Don’t f**k with me man!!” masculinity that is growing tiresome.
I’d love to show others that there is more to me than these devilish good looks and a mean right hook. I like to listen to Country music, read fantasy books (shout out to R.A. Salvator), and most of all I like to help people. But, IF you were here you wouldn’t see this part of me.
You wouldn’t see that the next woman that I want to be with will be my wife, and that I long to see my Mother smile in person and not just on a picture.
What you would see is an emotionless shell of a person who by means is looking for problems but will not back away from them either.
I’m just a man who is waiting to go back to his cell where I can breath again and let down his guard. I cannot wait until I can stop feeding that other wolf.
What do you show to others? Is it really you or is it who you need people to think you are? Who are you? Do you wear a mask like I do and why?