Too much time in this environment really shapes your thoughts, often pushing you into believing this is who you are and all you have. Which is why I think most fail to be free after release, refusing to let go of their coping mechanisms to survive this madness and confusing them for being parts of who they are.
What's why I believe having good people in your social circle is a huge catalyst that's necessary to remind you you're more than just an ID number, or a societal stigma, and you don't have to be defined by the moment that landed you here. Seeking that, “Change for the good” is a daily battle behind bars, but making that turning point isn't impossible nor is making friends to share the success stories with. You just have to put in the effort.
Somehow through it all I've maintained a laid back, go for it, hopeful about my future kind of attitude. Always the adventurer, I'm intrigued by different people and cultures which makes me curiously inquisitive at times. I feel this position has also given me a deeper value towards the smaller things in life like good food, two-ply toilet paper, and some private time in a bathroom (God do I miss these things).
I hope to hear from you soon. Thank you for sharing your time to see who I am.
Emails and mail is slow here, but I'll respond to all who hit me up.