I lie awake on a long dark night
I can’t seem to control my mind anymore.
The pain and sadness are killing me inside
I can’t accept the life that is now mine.
This simple living without reason is my
I’m trying to hold on, but the thought
of being alone is the reason I feel so
I’m worn out and cold.
I’m barely holding it together
I’m living in this body and it just
won’t heal. I’m calloused to the bone.
The sun shines and I can’t seem to avoid
I think maybe I’m holding onto this life
Sometimes I feel like giving up. The
feeling won’t leave me.
With each new day I pray that it will
be the day I leave all this behind, but it’s
not, the nightmare continues.
So I remind myself that one day it will
all end. But today I choose to fight
for another tomorrow and the chance to
walk free and clear my name.
If I had another chance I’d tell you
that the things “we” had were right and
I threw it all away.
Time cannot erase the love and memories
we shared, but it does give me time to reflect
and realize just how much you loved me.
Now that it’s over and your gone for good,
I’m really not the same anymore. I guess I
only have myself to blame.
Time cannot erase the things we said
but it does give me the time to reflect and
realize just how much I loved you.
The love we had and shared just can’t be found.
Now that I’m without you and all alone, it
gives me time to think about the years that I
was truly happy and you were mine.
I know I should have told you to stay
and fight for “us”
I didn’t want to be the person who held
you back from your dreams, what if we didn’t
work out? How could I live with myself?
Even though I knew in my heart you’re the
one, I should have held onto and never let go
I’m reminded all the time that time cannot
erase the joy and memories of the true love
we once shared, but it give me time to
reflect and realize what I lost
and threw away.
MY NIGHTS DREAM
The hurt and pain I feel runs through me so deep.
That most nights it robs me of my sleep.
I’m all alone in this nightmare of mine.
I had hoped it would end if just given some time.
Never in my life did I figure this side of me I’d see.
I hate this feeling because of what it's doing to me.
I can’t understand what brought about this change
But I’m starting to see even my friends are acting strange.
I hope very soon I’ll awake from this dream
And I hope when I wake up it’s not how it all seemed.
I know I’ll have to start all over again
And when that day comes, I’ll embrace it and grin.
I’ll be much wiser after this horrible dream.
Never again will I be awakened by my scream.
The people are faceless in my dungeon of fear
But I’ve tried to remain calm and not shed another tear.
I won’t let the pain and hurt continue to eat at my heart,
Because I know one day soon this dream and I will part.
Trying to remain strong is my only defense.
I’ll continue to do it even though my dream makes no sense.
Everyone has dreams this we all know is true,
But I hope that never in your life will this dream happen to you.
Once, I was afraid I would never find someone
To really care about.
I wanted someone perfect,
At least for me.
A special kind of talking,
An honest way of listening without judgment;
Not being afraid to laugh or cry;
Kindness and understanding;
Fun, love and excitement;
Someone who would lift my heart with joy.
I guess that I expected a lot,
But I’m a dreamer!
And I dreamed that someday
Someone’s special love
Would transform my life and perspective.
So, in spite of all the waiting,
All the loneliness,
All the almost giving-up,
It’s all been worthwhile.
Dreams really do come true,
Because what I always wanted
Isn’t a dream…it’s you.